So i have made up my mind and really i dont care anymore about keeping my new xanga so secret anymore. It's the internet for god's sake, nothing is a secret anymore.

http://www.xanga.com/xNever_Known_Lovex

The way i look at it, if you have a problem with anything i have to say...i dont give a flying fuck. Don't read it. But as fair warning, i plan on expressing my feelings as free as a bird from now on. No more holding it in for fear of hurting anyone's feelings. I dont care anymore about hurting anyone's feelings. I mean why should i?...I've not been getting respect from a lot of people lately. And i have been informed...not for the first time either...about people talking behind my back. I'll say this ONE more mother fucking time....

I DON'T APPRECIATE IT WHEN SOMEONE TALKS SHIT ABOUT ME BEHIND MY BACK AND ACTS DIFFERENT TO MY FACE. IF YOU'RE GONNA CALL ME A LIAR...TELL ME....IF IM IMMATURE...TELL ME....IF YOU ARE FEELING SORRY FOR ME FOR WHATEVER REASON....STOP! I DONT WANT PITY FRIENDS. I WANT REAL FRIENDS. SO IF TALKING SHIT IS WHAT YOU PLAN ON DOING...HAVE A NICE LIFE.

I really hope i have made myself clear. And if this sounds like you...and you are willing to admit to me that you have talked shit about me behind my back....and possibly give a reason...i wont be a bitch. But there are certain people who i have been told on many occasions has said their fair share of shit about me. They are who im expecting to here from. If by any chance you have talked shit before...and dont think i know....you're best bet would be to tell me now...before someone else does.

Just a reminder...

This Saturday is the Halloween Costume Dance at the park. It's a good time and gives you chances for cool prizes if your costume is scariest, funniest or most original.

That means Halloween is right around the corner too, i thought i had plans but now im not so sure. Kassie...i guess if you still wanted me to come over...let me know.

Oh, im pretty sure im selling my Honda already...i paid $900 for it....im selling it for $500. It runs and everything, i just think it should belong to someone that can make it look the way it should. Someone that knows how to fix details that i dont. Plus, i need the money since everywhere i have applied hasn't called me back. So...if you or anyone you know would be interested ...let me know.

I'll still use this journal...obviously...but if you want the new one...leave me a comment....just dont subscribe to it.

Well...my new xanga is up and running. *Joy*

But this one get's one more big ol update.

Anyone who would like to have it...comment me and we will talk on AIM or ICQ. Seriously, if you ask me for it, just to go run and tell people that you know would love to read up on me. I'll make it so only people i want to read it can. It's no big deal for me not to have a public journal.Just the people who actually CARE about what goes on with me. But ya know...chances are....if you just ask me for it....i'll give it to you. No need to have people ask for you.

As for this developing drama regarding the park on Saturday...if you have something you need to take up with me....talk to me. Jumping to conclusions about how i feel about someone really could have you confused by the time it's all said and done. Just for the record....i have not given up a friendship at all....people have bad days....*ive said this once before already*....it's called being human. Most of the time...people talk things out and all is understood. Now....if it's your choice to stop being friends...then i can't help that...but just so everyone is clear....i not once said i no longer wanted to be friends with anyone.

Ok....now that im done there...here is something that my creative mind thought of tonight...and of course...since respect for other people is low these days....im sure it will pop up in many xanga's...but i know im saying this from the heart...so that's all the matters.

L.oss
O.f
V.alueable
E.motions

Hmm...yeah. Im done.

I'm making a new xanga.

You'll be lucky if any of you get to know what it is.

I hate how ive been being treated by people that are supposed to be my "friends".

Bye.

Wow....so...in the wee hours of the morning i decided to look through my very first ever made journal. It's a blurty. And wow did it ever bring back some old memories and tons and tons of old drama.

Crazy shit happened in high school.

But yeah...i guess if your interested in learning some more about my high school drama you can ask me for the journal and you can read it.

I also read some other people's Blurty's....that was humerous. Especially the way people love to deny things from their past. Yet when it was happening it was a different story.

haha..it made me chuckle.

Well...i dont have much to say right now. more later.